Love letter # 37

I have tried to be sane – to be friends – but I have failed.

One of us is poison to the other. I’ll leave you to make your own determination on that.

I cannot judge you. I cannot be in a room with you. It is as simple as that. I know it’s absurd, and I offer no defence, but I wish to ink this full stop right here.

I love you endlessly, recklessly…but I choose to live. Please don’t seek further explanation; the sound of your voice shakes my resolution to pieces. I am only calm in silence.

You are the most astonishing person I have known, the most dangerously beautiful. I have never felt so connected. Never been so sure. Until now.

Forgive me.