FREE LOVE LETTERS

Category: Sorry

  • Love letter # 604

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    Paul Ransom
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    They will not love you. They do not know how. Not like you would prefer. I say this to myself to make it better. For me, but also for you. Because I do not wish to resent you. There is little point, and you do not deserve it. My asking never implied your acceptance. I…

  • Love letter # 516

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    Paul Ransom
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    It’s true, I look at couples and see us. And there is a fracture in my heart. Hairline, but there. Like you once were. Before I chose. Of course I wonder; did I chase one thing and end up with another. Is this the mirage of my longing? I wanted this – whatever this is…

  • Love letter # 519

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    Paul Ransom
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    Please wait, you said…and in the ark of patience I loved you…until the distance became just that…a space beyond traversing…and then another, a fire closer than hope and memory. Please forgive me…I failed the test of time and distance…looking across the chasm of waiting…desire dissolving in increments to a numb new reality…my head finally turned…wishing…

  • Love letter # 616

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    Paul Ransom
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    “I’m not opposed.” you said. How was I meant to proceed after that? Sure, it was consent, an allowance, but it wasn’t even lust, let alone love. I had courted you, and in the process my desire had deepened beyond affection and into genuine care. And then…a first kiss. My body and heart on fire.…

  • Love letter # 472

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    Paul Ransom
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    Did I try to change you? I should not have. They were my bruises.

  • Love letter # 355

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    Paul Ransom
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    Now, with all these years between, it finally becomes clear why I was drawn to you and why my actions were misguided. You had a fire in you; and so did I. But I tried to smother mine. Was it because I thought that’s what you wanted – an anchor of sorts? A counterpoint? Someone…

  • Love letter # 410

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    Paul Ransom
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    I am writing to thank you; but also to apologise. The latter is because I am breaking my silence, the former is because you give me the only reason to do so. The bare truth of the matter is that our brief exchanges – your smiles, those hugs you give me, the touches – remind…

  • Love letter # 592

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    Paul Ransom
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    At the time I was blind. Just acting. Reacting. Blundering hurt and foolish. Doing things I never should. Saying stuff I didn’t really mean. Or now wish that I hadn’t. Because I felt out of control I tried to impose a form of control on you. All the usuals: blackmail, pity seeking, stubborn refusals and…

  • Love letter # 591

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    Paul Ransom
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    Okay, so you’re probably wondering why I’m emailing you again after all this time – but let me assure you I’m not after anything. I’m not looking to push any buttons or play silly emotional games. I just wanted to say that I dreamt about you last night. It was a garage sale scene; me…

  • Love letter # 498

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    Paul Ransom
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    Though I may have behaved badly, please do not doubt my love – or at least my honest belief that this is what this feeling is. I am flawed. I get angry and jealous and can be petty, insecure and controlling. All these things were in me before you came along – perhaps they will…